Here is another day, what are you going to do with it?

That is the question I woke up with echoing inside my head after going back to bed this morning. I had awakened about 2 hours earlier with the mantra of “I’m going to die”.

In hindsight, “I’m going to die” seems ludicrous. Of course I am! Everyone is! But upon my first wake up I talked to my wife, a surprisingly smart woman even though she married me. We had talked about acceptance (not resignation or giving up) and that old standby of taking it one day at a time. And as I’m writing this I’m remembering one of my favorite lyrics “Tomorrow Doesn’t Care” that I wrote with Leif Larsson that was performed by the LOST VAN GOGHS.  I’ll put the Spotify link to the song at the end of the post, but here are the lyrics:

You can plan your life away, always living on the run

Lose yourself in small details, never give your heart to anyone

Waiting for the moment to seize the perfect day

Hoping for atonement, throwing it away

You can’t live in tomorrow

Building castles in the air

Don’t you know this time is borrowed

And tomorrow doesn’t care

And you can dream until you’re blind, and keep collecting all your souvenirs

Tell yourself those pretty lies as you just fade away and disappear

Lost in discontentment, walking in a trance

Hiding your resentment, scared to take a chance

You can’t live in tomorrow

Building castles in the air

Don’t you know this time is borrowed

And tomorrow doesn’t care

And it might not still be there

You can’t live in tomorrow

Building castles in the air

Don’t you know this time is borrowed

And tomorrow doesn’t care

Don’t you this time is borrowed

And tomorrow doesn’t care

I wrote that… so what the hell am I sitting there worrying about “I’m going to die, I’m going to die”?

Well, I went back to bed and slept off and on for a sweaty, uncomfortable 2 hours. And when I woke up it was like a fever had broken and I was looking around my room, thankful and thoughtful because I was hearing “Here is another day, what are you going to do with it? instead of I’m going to die”.

So I ate breakfast and sat down at the computer and started writing this. And I’m sure there will be other days when I lapse into the fever of self pity, but hopefully the fever will break again and I’ll come out on the other side saying “Here is another day, what are you going to do with it?”.

And here is the link to TOMORROW DOESN’T CARE

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3 thoughts on “Here is another day, what are you going to do with it?

  1. Always beautiful. I think we all have those thoughts. Life,as we know it, is so beautiful and we do not want to leave it. Sound like you need me -your nurse- to cross the pond and so we can go out and play in the world.
    Take care of yourself. I love my talented-Brilliant cousin. You are tight-Fia is very smart,but we all have our weak moments. Must have been an all time low when she said Yes. LOL
    Take good care and keep writing.

  2. You have always been such an inspiration. You are so far from death’s door. You can kick this in the ass like you have so many other obstacles that have been thrown your way. We would all be pissed if you were to throw in the towel. Hugs! Forever your friend! Donna
    And perhaps it was the “ice bears” that got the better of her when she said yes!!

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