Two weeks ago, I wanted to die. I literally prayed for death. I met with my wife and children and asked them permission to let go and then said my goodbyes. But I didn’t die. Luckily my prayer was not answered. And that weekend I lay in bed listening to my wife and children playing games and talking and laughing. I suddenly realized I didn’t want to leave these people that I loved so much.
The whole dive had started because I was supposed to have an x-ray that week so we could see the size of the tumor. My oncologist cancelled it with the excuse of “what’s the use?” I’m supposedly terminal and this was a confirmation. And as I lay in bed I realized, this woman doesn’t know, she hasn’t seen me in a month and no new x-rays have been taken since August. Plus she doesn’t realize the power of prayer and all my divine sparks.
In the last two week my appetite has come back. I have probably gained a kilo and my liver value has improved to within 1 percentage point of normal.
The real change started on a Monday night. My entire family had gone to see my son perform in a play. My brother in law stayed with me. He was going to help with dinner, but his culinary skills are not the best so I got out of bed and fixed myself eggs and toast. I couldn’t sleep so ended up sitting up for 3 hours that night. After that everything changed. I started to live again.
I thank God and all of you for that miracle. All I know is new paths are opening and I am positive and believe. My wife is a rock and supports me endlessly. We are working hard and with your continued prayers another miracle might occur.
Just wanted to share this and thank you! Love, Brian