Another day

This is my therapy so I really appreciate people reading my random thoughts. It’s difficult writing because of cancer fatigue, but your comments and being able to share with you is what keeps me going. Another breakdown today, like a pendulum between despair and thankfulness for being alive. I cry a lot more than I ever have. Fia says that’s natural.

But I am still able to eat and sleep. Still able to write although it is difficult. I am waiting to see when my treatment can start. I am hoping the last week of this month latest. I am still eternally grateful to everyone who contributed to the GO FUND ME account and contributed in other ways. I am grateful for many things, especially the support and love I get from all of you. It’s a lifeline. I’d especially like to thank Arnold Wiley for constantly offering up prayers on my behalf and for other cancer sufferers. There are many others who keep me in their prayers and I love all of you too.

I wish I had more words of wisdom or insights to share but I don’t. I must remind myself that love is all there is; I must keep believing that through my faith and beliefs, recovery is coming; I must believe that there is a divine plan and that I have a purpose to fulfill. I must stay positive. There is so much I have yet to do and my purpose is clear now. Please pray that I am granted the strength to carry it out.

I am not a strong person but I have many around me giving me strength to carry on. Love is life and true life is love. Even in my darkest hour there is light. I just have to focus on that. I guess we all do.

Thanks again for reading. It means more than you know. Keep the comments coming. Love to you all.

Brian

13 thoughts on “Another day

  1. You are way stronger than you’ll ever know my friend! I’m praying for you and sending positive energy. Love ya man.

  2. Wisdom and insight are not needed when you share your experience from the heart as you do. Love comes shining through….like diamond sparkles reflected in your tears of sorrow and joy.
    As Arnold and so many others know and believe – Faith, hope and love; but the greatest of these is love.
    MUCH LOVE MY FRIEND

  3. And you are able to see, to hear, to enjoy the many smells, to touch, to feel even if it means tears, and to think….you are indeed a Blessed man – Love to you, Fia and the boys (really your young men)

  4. Jag läser dina tankar och blir mer o mer förundrad över vad positiva tankar kan göra och med människor runt omkring som tänker på dig kram kram

  5. So happy to be starting the year with Hobb’s random thoughts! I am confident that I am not the only person who find your words encouraging and your strength and willpower an inspiration!
    Prayers will continue to come your way so keep fighting my brother! Cancer free.. sounds like a plan!!!

  6. Living honestly and sharing both your ups and your downs, no matter how tired you get, counts as life, Brian. This battle you wage is not what you signed on for, and it doesn’t pay – literally or figuratively – the dividends your music does, but it is valuable in God’s eyes. It helps His children. I do not pretend to understand what you face, so I just lift you to God and trust that you will feel Him with you.

  7. You have been strong through this and continue to get stronger. Be positive and believe. When I talk with Linda and see her strength and positive attitude she reminds me that there are far more people in worse shape than she. You are loved and surrounded by family and friends—some go through this alone. It has to be very hard. Hang in there and Believe. Love You Across the Pond

  8. Brian, here’s an idea: if you feel too tired to write, you may again post the wonderful story about your walk the day after your Rusty had gone to dog heaven. I remember it being one of the most touching yet full of love and hope stories ever. You are a very gifted writer and sharing it again would be a treat to your readers. And don’t push yourself to write – remember that rest and sleep are the most ignored remedies available to mankind.

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