This is my therapy so I really appreciate people reading my random thoughts. It’s difficult writing because of cancer fatigue, but your comments and being able to share with you is what keeps me going. Another breakdown today, like a pendulum between despair and thankfulness for being alive. I cry a lot more than I ever have. Fia says that’s natural.
But I am still able to eat and sleep. Still able to write although it is difficult. I am waiting to see when my treatment can start. I am hoping the last week of this month latest. I am still eternally grateful to everyone who contributed to the GO FUND ME account and contributed in other ways. I am grateful for many things, especially the support and love I get from all of you. It’s a lifeline. I’d especially like to thank Arnold Wiley for constantly offering up prayers on my behalf and for other cancer sufferers. There are many others who keep me in their prayers and I love all of you too.
I wish I had more words of wisdom or insights to share but I don’t. I must remind myself that love is all there is; I must keep believing that through my faith and beliefs, recovery is coming; I must believe that there is a divine plan and that I have a purpose to fulfill. I must stay positive. There is so much I have yet to do and my purpose is clear now. Please pray that I am granted the strength to carry it out.
I am not a strong person but I have many around me giving me strength to carry on. Love is life and true life is love. Even in my darkest hour there is light. I just have to focus on that. I guess we all do.
Thanks again for reading. It means more than you know. Keep the comments coming. Love to you all.